Saturday, August 20, 2005
i'll always look back
as i walk away
this memories will last
for eternity
and all of our tears
will be lost in the rain
when i find my way back
in your arms again
dear diary,
its now 12.25am and im tired... had 3 tests today... lit, bio (respiration) and english. math, ss, and chem (periodic table) will be next week.. ahh.. have to study much harder now..
i cant believe it! my chinese is changing to CL B! thank goodness... if i have to take the real chinese exam for the olevels, i would die! i spoke to the principal the other day, then to my chinese teacher (school) and they agreed and are currently helping me apply and change. my chinese tutor however (shen lz she) is really upset... i guess i can understand cos we've been friends since i was 10, and im one of her favourite students. or should i say, the student she likes best. =P we have so much fun together.. and we're close as well. though she has her flaws, i still really do like her. she says that once i change to CL B, i wont need tuition anymore since the standard and expectation of CL B is really low. in the exam there's only multiple choice and there's no A1 or B3 or whatever, its just graded pass or fail. i guess its a loss to change to CL B now, but i really cant cope with what im "studying". i dont understand whatever my chinese teacher is saying in class. while the whole class can make jokes in chinese and laugh at them, i dun even know wth they are saying! and which is left and right? zuo and you? whatever. forget chinese.
i feel like watching wwe raw that's at 1am since i missed both raw and smackdown this week cos i had to study. the thing is, im just so tired. ahhh. i think im going to sleep. my stomach and head hurts. arrrgh. appointment with my neurologist this wed. alot of work to complete over the weekend as well.
over what happened today:
i dont wish to say it here. but u know what happened. its good getting things out in the open. its good to talk it out. but its if we survive and hold through together. well, maybe next time.
the ultimate test of a relationship is to disagree, but hold hands.
swollen, sore and red eyes.
twisted and cracked heart.
painful and tired legs.
chest tightens.
face damp with tears.
long hair to cover face.
hands to cover face.
tired head.
painful stomach.
dry mouth.
tired eyes.
sad eyes.
goodnight... sweet dreams...
with loves; christine
12:18 AM
